Poured Syrup

I was  ready. I was ready to move on. I was finally prepared to let go of all this stupid feelings and emotions I hold burning inside me. I know I was . But then, it seemed like faith had a different path for me. It has its way of ironically twisting the road on my ready-to-let-go-and-move-on-path. Tangina! I was almost there! On the edge of that bridge that I have so long looked for. I was ready to cross and leave everything behind me buried and forgotten in that dark lingering forest. I WAS READY. Pero bakit naman ganun?! Kung kailan naman handa na ko, biglang magiging ganito. What the fuck?! I hope that what they say is true. That even if life's totally unfair at times, it still is irrevocably just. Got my fingers-crossed right here. I am so hoping that that is all true. I want justice for martyrs like me to be served. EMO. "It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do. Baby, I stay in love with you... So I can't get over you now, no matter what

I'm sorry, then.

After a long, tiring day, I finally am home and in front of my precious computer, typing yet again , another one of my non-sense bloggings. To summarize my whole day today: ♥ SO MUCH FUN. ♥ VERY TIRING. ♥FULL OF ANNOYING PEOPLE. ♥SOMEWHAT IRRITATING. ♥FULL OF LAUGHTER. ♥FULL OF CUTE BOYS. ♥FULL OF CRAZY STORIES. Yes, those are the things that would summarize my entire day. I'ma have to make this thing short 'cause I still got lots of things to do. It's our midterm exams tomorrow, and my cramming time is finally on. Plus, I'm hungry.

"I have all the rights in this world to hate and sadly, to be hated. " My last thought before I turn off this computer and go to sleep. I'm not full of hatred or anything. It just so happens that, that was the last thought that I had. *Happy Birthday Camz. Hugs and kisses girl(:

Now that I come to think of it, I'm not really that blocked. Maybe just a little. Oh no, I'm really blocked, a lot. Yeahh, doesn't even make sense, but apparentlty it does to me. Watching Ugly Betty gave me serious goosebumps. Talk about people dying, separating and meeting accidents everywhere. What a pity. I love my schedule and I love holidays. I had such a long weekend because of the declared holiday last Monday (wasn't that yesterday?) , and tomorrow, I won't have any classes, again. I just love staying at home and doing absolutely nothing. * laughs. And yet, I'm supposed to be doing a lot of studying and reviewing today and tomorrow. Midterm exams would be on Thursday and Friday already. And this is why I was called and known as The Cram Queen. I cram at every single exam. That has been my expertise since high school, and honestly, I'm kinda good at it. Bummer. I envy my previous schoolmates who got into such elite universities. I know that I a

Can't wait.♥♥♥

Why am I and my head absolutely and totally blocked today? I cannot think of anything sensible to say or write about. All my thoughts are too random to be put into writing. Damn. What the hell is with this day? I think I was exposed to too much rain. Yes, I think that's it, too much rain . * Tsktsk.

How to write a blog: Sit in front of your computer, stare at the monitor and keyboard, then think. Just think 'till your nose bleeds and your mind is unable to produce a single thought. I have no friggin' idea why I got into blogging so much. I think it's a way for me to release all these random thoughts in my head in a more creative way. Yes, this is already creative for me. Talk about insomnia. Did you know that I'm currently typing this thing on my phone, and will soon be transferred on the computer once I got the chance (and now I got that chance). It's now 11:51 pm. I seriously wanna go to sleep already, but this insomnia crap won't allow me to do so. School is getting nearer and nearer. Damn it. I seriously need to stop bragging about this stupid non-sense. Going to school is something that I have to face sooner or later (more like a few hours from now). Might as well deal with it now. I have no friggin' choice, anyway. Just think about the money, swee

I think I'm becoming more stupid every single day. I'm having such a hard time comprehending with things that are happening around me. That bothers me a lot. Why? Because I'm such an observant (or at least I hope I still am). I notice everything that's happening within miles from me. But now, I don't seem to care about anything anymore. Oh wait, that just hit me. I still am observant. The only problem that I have is that I care less about things. Ahh, so that one's solved, I guess. My attitudes getting worse. I'm becoming more barbaric than usual. My being frank seems to affect people more so than it has affected them before. I am such a big mouth. Yes, I hate being one. But I just can't help it, you know. It's almost 10:30 in the evening and I still don't wanna go to sleep. Sleeping would mean that I would soon wake up. This are one of the nights I wish won't end . It's not that I'm having fun tonight or anything, it's jus

I think that this was the most unproductive day of my life. I did nothing but stare at my computer (except of course for my sporadic blogging). I think I'm starting to become extremely melodramatic about not wanting to go to school. It's all that I've been ranting about this whole weekend. Okay now, enough about that. Midterms are coming up. And once again, I have no intention on studying anything. I just have this mind-set right now that I don't care whether I fail or pass. But so far, I have no failing grades yet, thank god. Everything that we are studying now on class, I have taken up in high school already. So yes, I'm currently living by stocked knowledge . I thank St. Scholastica so much for giving me high-quality education. Not only do I know, but I understand almost everything that we are studying today. Our next semester on the other hand would probably make the bags under my eyes a lot bigger than it already are. Imagine having to deal with 6 out

Okay, here I am again, going to rant about how much I dread going to school. I just realized that the sun has set already. You know what that means? That means it's night time already. And night time means I would have to sleep soon enough, and sleeping means I would have to wake up and go to school tomorrow. Boy, I really don't wanna go anywhere tomorrow. Like hell. Yess, that's about it.

How Smoking Affects The Body Smoking causes many premature deaths from diseases that are largely incurable, but preventable by stopping smoking. There are three main killing diseases which smoking causes or brings on earlier: ♥Heart disease. Smoking is responsible for 30 percent of all heart attacks and cardiovascular deaths. ♥Cancer. It is responsible for at least 30 percent of all cancer deaths and 87 percent of lung cancer deaths each year. ♥Lung problems. Smoking is responsible for 82 percent of deaths due to emphysema and chronic bronchitis. Smoking also exacerbates diseases and conditions that are not always fatal, but cause suffering or are sources of personal concern. Smoking delays healing of peptic ulcers of the stomach and duodenum, many of which would heal spontaneously in non-smokers. Its effects on blood vessels cause chronic pains in the legs (claudication) which can progress to gangrene and amputations of the toes or feet. An effect on elastic tissue causes wrinkling of

Oh yess, by far the most famous of all novels in this century, Twilight by Stepehnie Meyer. Who would blame people for going absolutely gaga over this book? I for one is a fan of this. What a great book, huh? I cannot even imagine someone writing such a splendid story. I seriously am hands down to Stephenie Meyer. It's a long story and a really thick book, but still, people managed to get through to finishing, not only the first book, but all four them. Even those people who's not really fond of reading, got interested with this one. This is probably the next Harry Potter, only a lot better. I cannot wait for the release the movie here in the Philippines. Rumors has it that the release date would be on November 20, 2008, but I'm not sure about that, though. I just really hope that I won't get disappointed with the movie. I hate it when they cut scenes from the book and don't show them on the movie. Hoping they won't do that to this one. * Fingers-cross

Good morning(?) Cause you see, technically it's not morning anymore, but since I just woke up, I would have to say "Good morning" still. Well then, Good Morning!!!! No classes today. Hooray for everyone. And still, I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. I would have to wake up so early cause our classes would start at 7:30. Like damn. * Arghh. And nooo, allowance is not a good enough reason for me to go to school. Actually before, money motivates me to go to school. Whenever I wake up feeling lazy and crap, I would just tell this to myself, "You have to go to school, for the money! C'mon girl!" But now, I would trade all the money in the world just to stay at home and do nothing but sleep, eat, watch TV, and be in front of my computer. * Ughh. How I wish it would be holidays forever. I don't even know what the assignments are for tomorrow. Oh whatever, this is what you call, the beauty of copying assignments from your classmates. Lol. Yeahh, on

I'm desperately trying to think of something that I could possibly write in my blog right now. Got nothing left to say. I'm absolutely drained of all thoughts. Well, except for one. My neighbor's so damn noisy. Yeahh, I think they're having a "party" or something. I could hear people singing and shouting and stuff. Whatever. They're disturbing people who's already fast asleep. And yeahh, the guy who's singing is totally tone deaf. Seriously dude, stop singing! You're irritating my ears! And that's what a desperate bored person does. Shout at someone using their blogs. Yeahh, talk about insanity. Lol. And still, there goes the singing again. *Ughh. All right, all right. Enough about my singing neighbor. But, what am I gonna say? I told you, I'm seriously drained of sensible thoughts right now. Oh wait, something popped into my head. I remember my Mom telling me that using the computer before going to sleep damages our brain cells. W

Oh yess, I am still wide awake. And it's now like past 1 in the morning. Sleeping in the afternoon didn't do me all good. Now, I can't sleep anymore. * Arghh. So yeahh, just listening to the radio. Got nothing else to do. And I'm starving . Crackers are not enough for me. Huhu. I wanna eat something. Damn. Why are there no foods in this house? So whatever. This starvation thing is killing me. What else? Oh yeahh, I don't wanna go to school. I just wanna be here at home all day and all night. School sucks. I just got sick of it already. Whatever college. Can somebody take me back to high school? For one thing, I am tired of the long commute. Imagine, I have to wake up so damn early just because the ride from our house to my school is 1 hour. Unlike when I was in high school, my school was right across the street. It would be like a less than 5 minute walk. Second, I hate the schedule. Third, I dislike the people, not all, but most . Yeahh, whatever. Have

OLD FRIENDS.♥ I was chatting with an old friend of mine in Multiply. And talking to her made me realize how much I really miss my high school friends. I miss so many things about my high school and the people that are part of it. I miss hanging out with them at Mcdonald's after school. I miss going to Robinson's Place or at Sta. Lucia whenever we are dismissed early. I miss my friends hanging out here at my house after school and eating pancit canton. I miss eating fishballs and kikiam at Nitz after class. I miss taking their foods during our break time just because I don't wanna spend my money to buy something. Lol. I miss all our underground practices for the different class competitions. I miss all the high school fairs and variety shows. * Whew. Boy do I miss a lot from high school, or what?! It's not that I hate college or anything like that. But it's just that, there's really nothing that would ever compare to our high school years. In high schoo

BEFORE... in all the fairy tales, the prince will fall inlove with the princess. And the prince will fight the witch and dragons to have his princess. BUT NOWADAYS... the prince would simply make the princess fall deeply inlove with him. And the princess will do ALL the fighting. I think that is the reason why, fairy tales only exist... "ONCE UPON A TIME..." Funny how that works. -becluhh♪

Only music can let us sing. Only music can make our feet dance. And only music can let our mind reminisce back to our past. But what's important about music is, they can be the voice of what we feel inside. Especially when we are mute by the words of our mouth. So true, right? What do we do without music? What a sad, sad world it would be. -becluhh♪

Oh yeahh, am still wide awake. Watching a Mary-kate and Ashley Olsen movie. Total fave. Lol. :D Well, I looovee them. They're like the coolest. My Yahoo Messenger's killing me. Can't log on. I was chatting with someone, you know. Talk about rudeness major. * ampff. Oh godd. I just looked at my watch. It's 2 in the morning. Talk about insomnia, baby. Lol. :D Good thing it's Sunday tomorrow. There are no classes. Cause if there was, I'd be seriously screwed. This whole not sleeping thing kinda made me think about the bags on our eyes. I HATE having huge eye bags. Kills me so. * ughh. Even if I do sleep early , I just can't get rid of this hideous things. Can anybody tell me how to remove this? SERIOUSLY. Whatever. Can't do anything about those things for now. Hm, another thought in my head. How does it feel to have a twin? Just wondering. Cause as I've said I am watching an MK&A movie. And that just kinda made me wonde

9 Hardest Times of Your Life: ♥Being questioned when you yourself don't understand. -Got that right. It would be seriously hard to answer a question when you yourself don't understand the thing that is being questioned to you. ♥Pretending to be innocent of what you know about. -Woo. Can really relate to this one. Damn. This is hard. ♥Trying to forget something you know you never will. -Talk about the stupid thing we call LOVE. ♥Admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right. -It is hard. And not to mention absolutely and totally embarassing. ♥Debating with yourself. -I always do this one. It's hard to debate with yourself. You contradict every damn thing that you say. So stupid. ♥Accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be. -Well, if we really want that something, it would be really hard to accept that fact. ♥Trying to understand when you just can't. -Talk about Chemistry. Stupid subject. *arghh. ♥R

Just got home from my niece's birthday party. I'm tired and I'm hungry. Yup, I'm hungry. Weird, huh? Coming home from a party, and still I am hungry. As I've said, I eat like a glutton. Lol. :D So yeahh, I was the official photgrapher of that party. Been taking for pictures for over 2 hours. Like damn. Whatever. It was still fun though. I felt like a kid again. I remembered celebrating my 7th birthday ages ago. And that made me realize one thing. I'm old! Yeahh, I'm old as hell. I'm turning 17 already. And soon enough, I'm gonna be a debutante. Goodness gracious, I'm seriously old! Time really does fly so fast. * sighs. Oh well, that's about it. I'ma eat first cause I'm really starving. - becluhh♪

Why is it SO HOT here in the Philippines?!! Like damn. I feel so irritated right now. How I wish I had airconditioning in my room. I would kill to have my parents room right now. Okay, so my Mom's in my room. She brought me a bananacue. Yumyum. But I really don't wanna eat anything heavy now. I would be going to a children's party later on. And I know that there would be lots of food there. Yeahh, I'd be going to a children's party. It's my niece's 7th birthday. And here in the Philippines, that means big celebration. * Trivia: In case you don't have this in your country, a bananacue is a banana covered in brown sugar. Fried to perfection of complete sweetness. Lol. :D So there, I guess I should be getting ready now. Car would be coming soon to fetch me. Oh yeahh. Hmm, what am I gonna wear? Think baby, think. :P -becluhh♪

Gooodd Morninggg!! :D Oh yeahh. I just woke up. And it's like what, nearly 11 in the morning. Haha. :P What can I say. I was seriously tired last night. Anyway, my cellphone was filled with so many text messages. 23 I think. And one person even miscalled me. Yeahh, 23 senseless group messages. Whatever, boy. But, there's this one message that strucked me. It was from a friend of mine, and here's how it goes: "Sa kolehiyo, maraming impluwensya ang makikita, masama man o mabuti ito, wag isisi sa thesis partner o sa kaibigan kung bakit nasira baga mo sa kakayosi, nasira ang atay mo sa kakainom at kung bakit nagkaroon ka agad ng pamilya. KUNG TALAGANG MATINO KANG TAO, KAHIT SINO PA MANG TARANTADO ANG KASAMA MO AY MAITUTUWID MO PA RIN ANG DAANANG TATAHAKIN MO.." -Bob Ong Okay, you people probably did not understood that. So, here's the english version. "In college, there would be many influences that you'd encounter, they may be good or

Just got home. And boy, am I seriously tired. This is like the most tiring day for me so far as the start of my college years. To ennumerate it all, let me start from the time I woke up. Start of my day. August 22, 2008 I had to wake up at 5 in the morning. Yeahh, five in the morning. Early, huh? Oh well, my class starts at 7:30 so I really had to wake up that early. Then, by 6 I had to be on my way to school already. Yup, had to prepare myself for just 1 hour. Imagine that. I had to rush and shorten everything I do. So there, by 6, I was out of our house. I rode an FX to the train station, then on the train, I would get off at the last station. From there, I still had to ride a jeepney to school. *Trivia An FX is a public vehicle here in the Philippines similar to that of a taxi only bigger and is capable of more passengers. A jeepney on the other hand, is a long colorful public vehicle which is very popular here in the Philippines. But is not airconditioned th

I know that it would be really, really gross to post this thing publicly, but I just seriously need to let this thing out of my system. I hate monthly periods. Yup. You read that one right. Monthly periods. Girls out there, join me wouldja please?! For guys, you probably won't relate to this topic at all. Just wondering. How come we girls experience monthly pain, while all guys out there are just sitting happily and comfortably without having to worry about silly things like monthly periods? I was just really wondering, you know. We girls have to experience pain every single month. And not only that, we also have to experience the burden (though not all the time) of carrying a baby in our belly for nine months. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with having a baby, and I have nothing against that. But the thing is, why do us ladies have to carry ALL the pain? *ughh. Oh well, I can't do anything about that now. That's human nature. But seriously, this

Yeahh. My very first post. I have started a lot of blogs before but nothing ever did last. I am now hoping that this thing would last a lot longer. Anyway, gonna introduce myself first and gonna tell you what this blog is going to be about. The name's Victoria, but people call me Becs for short. Yeahh, I know. What's the connection right? It would be probably be a lot more acceptable if my name was Rebecca. I don't know what's with my name either. I have had that nickname since I could ever remember. My Mom has been calling me that for ages. I'm 16 years old . And currently in College. Too young to be in college? Wondering why, huh? Well, that's because I'm living here in Philippines. You see, in this country, you graduate high school by the time you're 16. We don't have the junior high stage. After 6th grade, you are automatically upgraded to high school. Now, about this blog. Now that I'm already a freshman in college, I

I have no freaking idea why I am even writing a blog. But as I've said, this is due to boredom and/or insanity. But this time, it's mostly because I'm bored. I am sitting, all alone, in this dark room of mine. I'm actually suppose to be studying. But nooo. I just had to do something else.