Ginger has certainly inspired me in so many ways. She was a part of my childhood, my early teen years, and now, my late teen years. Whenever I need good vibes, I just open my computer and watch her show. Her words and her thoughts never fail to inspire me and make me smile.
I'm scared of change. I'm scared at the fact that I totally have no idea what the future holds for me. But ironically, I feel like I'm in a huge rut. I'm doing the exact same thing every day. I sleep at around 5 or 6 in the morning; wake up at 3 or 4 in the afternoon; open the computer; blog about what I want; watch some shows that I've downloaded; and blog some more until my eyes get tired. I'm in a really ugly, predictable rut. I honestly don't like it, but I don't want it to change either. It's like my comfort zone already. If I add something new to what I usually do with my day, I start to panic. I don't know why, but I just do. And there's another proof of how weird I really am.
But I think sooner or later, I'm gonna have to start embracing the changes around me. I need to start dealing with them and accepting them in my life. After all, change is what makes this world go round.
I'm just hoping that the changes I'll be experiencing are good. Cause I don't think I can handle another bad turn in my life right now.
The tighter you hold on to something, especially something that needs change and growth, the greater chance you have of losing it. But if you let it go, if you let it fly at the time that it most desperately needs to, well there's a darn good chance it may come back to you. -Ginger's DadHonestly, I don't want change. I hate change. Especially when I'm already comfortable and used to what's around me at the moment. It's kinda like an obsessive compulsion thing. I have this obsessiveness with wanting things to be "perfect" all the time. If I know that what I'm about to do won't turn out the way I want it to, I won't bother doing it anymore. Which usually back fires cause I just end up doing absolutely nothing.
I'm scared of change. I'm scared at the fact that I totally have no idea what the future holds for me. But ironically, I feel like I'm in a huge rut. I'm doing the exact same thing every day. I sleep at around 5 or 6 in the morning; wake up at 3 or 4 in the afternoon; open the computer; blog about what I want; watch some shows that I've downloaded; and blog some more until my eyes get tired. I'm in a really ugly, predictable rut. I honestly don't like it, but I don't want it to change either. It's like my comfort zone already. If I add something new to what I usually do with my day, I start to panic. I don't know why, but I just do. And there's another proof of how weird I really am.
But I think sooner or later, I'm gonna have to start embracing the changes around me. I need to start dealing with them and accepting them in my life. After all, change is what makes this world go round.
I'm just hoping that the changes I'll be experiencing are good. Cause I don't think I can handle another bad turn in my life right now.
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