Poured Syrup

I don't know how to describe what I've been feeling for the past few weeks. At first, I was kinda happy. Feeling great actually. Even though life throws its usual shit on me, I was still able to get through it. Family stuff, personal struggles, I got through it just fine cause of my friends. They were always there to make me feel better. Even if they don't exactly do anything to make me feel better, just the fact that they were there, and we were together having fun--drinking, talking, laughing, fooling around--these were more than enough to put a smile on my face; to make me happy. But when your friends aren't there anymore, when your friends start leaving you behind, you're left with nothing-- no one for that matter. I am not exactly in good terms with my family, and I usually despise being around them. And I don't have a sibling whom I can hang out with or whatever. So I turn to my friends for company. I turn to them to take my mind off of all the bullsh

I have not updated this thing in ages. Been too preoccupied with my Tumblr account--the blog I update almost every single day. Go check it out. I usually just blog here the stuff I don't want most of my internet friends to see. It's kinda like my sorta-private blog. (Sorta since some people know this blog still.) I just have to say though, I miss my old way of blogging. When being "internet/blogging famous" didn't matter that much to most people. When nobody judge your posts. When nobody follows a certain trend when it comes to their blog posts. When you blog just for the simple reason of wanting to. Nowadays, there are too many haters. Tumblr's just full of drama (seriously). Blogger is kinda this quiet place where you can just be yourself and not worry about what other people would think or say about you. You just blog. No more, no less. I miss this quiet place. But I have to admit that Tumblr already has this special place in my heart. No matter what